WHAT I BLOG DOES NOT DEFINE ME, FOR I HAVE NO DEFINITION
make that 8:45
forgot dinner
speech prep time
I probably shouldn’t’ve opened up Tumblr
but ah
aiming to finish by… 8pm
by “finish” I mean fully dotpointed, edited and revised
then I’ll rehearse for half an hour or so
then I’ll scheme for *coughWednesdaycough*
then I’ll rehearse twice more or so and time it, of course
then I’ll go to bed and yeah
the night ends with Bach’s Brandenburg Concerto, the one we studied and played in class earlier this year, yes, yes, I will keep that promise
oh and by the way, what I wanted to say to you earlier yesterday (Sunday) was “Be my girlfriend,” but I couldn’t ever say that, really, because it’d never ever happen
and now I have all this to stumble and crumble over because I like you more than I should and it’s all so waugh at the moment but I think you know but you’re kind enough to not open it up in front of us because you probably know it’ll embarrass me oh
and anyhow even if I like somebody and that somebody likes me back I don’t know if I’d have the courage to speak those three soft words to them
but yesterday, earlier, they were the first things to enter my head immediately after reading what you wrote and they bounced around for quite a while - and they’re still bouncing around
it’s probably because it’s five past midnight that I’m brave enough to write all this up here and I know you’ll eventually read it and if you don’t well then
but if you do, and when you do I know that you’ll know immediately these words are of you, I actually have nothing in mind as to what you’ll do
usually I have your reaction presumed and usually, funnily, I’m correct
but this time I don’t know whether you’ll leave it all up to me, or confront me about it, or write about it yourself, I don’t know, I don’t know
I don’t even know if it’s a true crush that I’m feeling or this is just an overdependence, but either way, I know it’s what’s making me hold on, and I suppose, very quietly, that it’s a good thing all in all
I like the “portrait/landscape” options on Word because it’s called “orientation” and it makes me think that Word accepts all sorts of orientations and that’s a nice feeling.
